My dilemma of the moment

2009-02-09 16:05
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Tea)
I run on caffeine. Predominantly in the form of diet pepsi.

I've been trying to drink "better for me" stuff lately.

There's only so much tea I can stand. Juice has too much sugar and is too sweet. Water is too damned boring after a very short bit of time, and I live in a world where too much of the stuff that goes in my mouth is tasteless as it is.

Ugh.

I need energy to get me through my day (don't tell me to get more sleep unless you want to be responsible for all of the jobs that I must do in a day for a week at least). Caffeine does that, at least enough for me to fake the rest on natural exuberance.

What I need to do and what I want to do to be better to myself seem to have a lot of damned conflict.

Good thing I'm good at conflict, I guess.
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I'm funny

2008-08-12 15:00
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Dork)
I just told someone "I have problems getting the words out."

I'm funny.

I just wish I was trying to be humorous.
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Things people don't expect me to know about

2008-02-15 16:45
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Me & my sweetie)
Correction - things *most* people who know me don't expect me to know about.

( So TMI it's not even funny, but I know you'll look anyway, so I'm not absorbing any blame here )
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It's a good thing my ego is strong like bull

2007-09-26 13:06
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Backup)
I've started getting the recommended edits back.

It's a lot of red ink.

Now, to be honest, I was expecting that. I did say "I suck at writing essays."

My first mewlish response though was "Did it really suck that badly?"

Then I stopped and thought again.

1) As always - I'm taking this course for my own benefit - my job here doing marketing does not depend on me passing this course. The only bad thing that happens if I fail the course is Boss refuses to pay for more classes. That's it.

2) My friends love me enough to let me have it - to give me the full use of their skills and knowledge to make myself look like less of a tard to the prof. That is no bad thing. That my ego is smarting a little is just because I'm used to having my arse firmly planted in my comfort zone. Now I'm out of it, and have the bright, shiny bum to prove it.

Tonight, I apply edits. Not all of them will make it - it is my essay, and there are places I'm willing to take the hit for the point I made the way I made it.

I'm really blessed. Thank you, folks. Me and the Ego That Ate New York really appreciate this.
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Okay, Princess

2007-09-25 19:39
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Princess)
Suck it up. You wanted to take this class. Yes, it's an essay. It's 5 pages of commentary linking the article you selected and the text. It's not bloody rocket science. Stop having panic attacks, stop dithering, stop using LJ as a time waster to excuse the fact that you're not working on the essay that's due Saturday.

You give this advice to everyone else. Time to pucker up, Princess.
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Nita Manual - Tip N

2007-07-27 09:14
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Default)
When handling the frightened Nita, always remember that she's an information junkie. The more information she has, the less likely to be randomly scared she is.
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For those of you who know of and pay any attention to my "rules"

2007-02-21 09:39
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Default)
I have a new one. Actually, it's been a guideline for a while, so I figured it deserved getting upgraded.

Rule 14: No major life decisions when sick, exhausted or in pain.

Not always possible, but any of the three play major havok with my decision making skills. I KNOW this and try to work with that.
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More signs of midlife...

2007-02-19 09:04
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Fire)
Not that this is new - I've wanted this since I was a teenager, and my father would tell me stories about doing this in Barbados with my mom for their honeymoon, but...

I want a motorcycle.

Yes, I know what I'd need to do to even pretend I'd be safe.

Yes, I know I could only use it maybe 6 months of the year, if I was lucky.

No, I can't really afford to have one any time soon.

But I think one of the things I want before I'm too old is a motorcycle.
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I know what I hate about being sick

2007-01-22 15:52
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Princess)
I'm a very social person.

When I'm sick, that's a bad thing to be.

I love my son. I love my husband. But you know it's a bad thing when you want to go to work even though you feel like you're gonna die, because there's *other* people there...
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Just a gentle reminder for those who might have forgotten.

2006-12-19 10:02
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Fire)
When I said, "I'm a bitch," to you? I really meant it. I blow off most shite that people toss my way as precisely that. If you step on toes when I've told you that I won't tolerate it, then I'll stomp back.

I don't have to be screaming to be angry. I don't need to tear people apart to get my point across. But I will not tolerate certain shite, I don't care how beloved of me you are.

Yes, that's confrontational. That is what I'm good at. You don't like it, suck it up, buttercup.
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Being me

2005-12-16 12:49
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Default)
One of the phrases I've heard most of my (adult) life is "How come you can do that and I can't?"

My usual response? "Because I'm me."

Anyone who knows me knows what I am on a basic level. And what to expect. And what that if I'm pissed with them, I'll tell them. And if I don't understand something, I'll ask. And that I don't have a lot of time for beating around the bushes to protect someone else's sense of self-worth, if I think that they need to know something.

I'm not actively cruel. I'm also not going to suffer an idiotic situation.

And everyone knows that.

How come I can do this?

Because they do know.

And because of that, I can be me, and not have to apologize for it. Anyone who doesn't like it can register a complaint with the management. If you're important enough to me, and I'm willing to change that part, I'll do something about it. If not, no harm, no foul, we both walk away.

The only headache is, this means I have no clue how the rest of you do it.
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Warning...

2005-10-12 09:24
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Tongue)
Apparently I'm punchy today...
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In the "it's a good thing that I'm the poster child for the CMA"

2004-10-06 15:22
the_nita: usual shot when I'm directing - since I'm *not* looking at actors, I must be working on the script. (Default)
I can help diagnose really simple illnesses that my friends have and direct them quickly to medical professionals?
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